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just a bit of reminiscing  (may 26, 2006 - the first day we met) I was alone thinking I was just fine I wasn't looking for anyone to be mine I thought love was just a fabrication A train that wouldn't stop at my station Home, alone, that was my consignment Solitary confinement So when we met I was SKIRTING around you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, honey I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby Didn't know I was looking for love Didn't know I was looking for love Cause there you stood and I would Oh I wonder could I say how I felt And not be misunderstood A thousand stars came into my system I never knew how much I had missed them Slap on the map of my heart you landed I was coy but you made me candid And now the planets circle around you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby Didn't know I was looking for love Didn't know I was looking for love So we built from here with love the foundation In a world of tears, one consolation Now you're here, there's a full brass band Playing in me like a wonderland And if you left I would be two-foot small And every tear would be a waterfall Soundless, boundless, I surround you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I just didn't know I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love (I just didn't know) Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love (Oh, I just didn't know) Didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby Didn't know I was looking for love Didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you, baby I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you Didn't know I was looking for love Didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you I didn't know I was looking for love Until I found you...
the battle has been won... after two weeks of battling with my unseen, microscopic enemies, i've finally won the battle!!
i am now 99.99% bacteria-free.. hehe! no more liquid diet for me. so
long to my thrice-a-day meal of thick soup and chuckie. and just in
time, too. it's annie's birthday celebration tomorrow.  hello, food! here i come!!!!!  the spoils of war:   
this is definitely ME!!!!!!!!!  Monkeys are always alert and can feel surroundings even as they are thoroughly engaged in conversation. Monkeys are sociable and have an active outside life. Monkeys sympathize with people and they in turn trust you with their secrets. Monkeys can forgive, but never forget and can be revengeful if somebody wrongs them several times. They wait their turn for the perfect opportunity and nothing can stop them from achieving a goal. They have a lively love life.
Monkeys are good at making people comfortable and even the most shy
individuals open up to them. Having a very attractive openness, and as
a partner they are reliable, adaptable and cheerful. Inherently brainy,
monkeys very rarely fail in their mission. They are good at assessing
risk and financial problems.Monkeys are intellectual and their memory is incredible. They don't care what opinions others may have of them. They know they are lucky, and they also know they have the power to change things when convenience calls. Monkeys are virtually unsinkable! If people try to trick monkeys, they will probably catch them. They never make a move without a plan. They are great strategists. They can spot an opportunity in any form. They never miss a trick! They improve and try to do things better, and often amaze even themselves. They are the ultimate diplomats and slip in and out of difficulties with ease. Monkeys are always out in front! ** i was born on april 28, 1980. that makes me a taurus and a monkey.. a bull-headed monkey?! 
i get so weak... ...well you would if you haven't been properly eating and drinking for a week!!!
 it's true what they say. you'll never realize a good thing until it has been taken away from you. i'm a picky eater. i'm not proud of it but that's just the way i am. and sometimes, on a whim, i would forego eating just because i don't feel like eating. and i once said that i appreciate more the feeling of being hungry that that of being full. <tine, what's that term again?> it's been a week since i last ate solid food. unfortunately, i've gotten a bad case of bacterial infection that immobilizes my poor tongue, which has made me unable to eat (and speak). oh, it's not like i'm hungry or anything. but i am getting tired of the soup-yakult-chuckie diet. besides, i miss eating my comfort foods. and i know annie will be a bit happy when i say that i haven't had coke since last monday because drinking coke burns my tongue so much i sometimes wish i could cut it off. my tongue, that is. before, people would berate me for not finishing my food. i used to tell them that it's not my fault that the serving is too large for me and i can't help but leave some food behind. now i think i might want to make a promise of not leaving any food on my plate from now on. (well, once i am well enough to eat, anyway.) haaay... saddest part is, i miss ran. 
i haven't talked to him for almost a week. well, we tried talking
once and i guess he got a bit miffed by me. can you imagine
talking to a mute person on the phone? i suppose that's what ran
felt like when he talked to me a few days ago. i just missed his
voice. aww.. there was
no "maane's day" last sunday as i feel that i am still unable to enjoy
going to the mall not with my tongue hurting every 5 minutes or so.i wish to get well soon. you know, i haven't been this religious at drinking my medicine, not since mommy and daddy were still here. i can fairly say that at this moment, i have been on-the-dot.. i have been taking my medicine exactly as prescribed. i haven't been cheating on anything. because before, i had the habit of not finishing the antibiotic prescribed for me whenever i feel that i am getting better. but since having stricken with this infection, i have been taking medicine since monday, every 6 hours. i texted ran this morning.. and i told him how i wish eating chickenjoy, cake and ice cream. oh well... maan-ology #3 "If you don't have anything nice to say, just SHUT UP."
maan-ology #2
a rude awakening this
morning, i went to school to have my ID picture taken. as i was
waiting for the lady at the bookstore to arrive, i glimpsed at the
schedule of my classes this coming june. my eyes almost bugged
out when i saw this course title:
human anatomy and pathophysiology
oh.my.God. when i was still a second year student almost 8 years ago, we had a subject called comparative anatomy wherein we dissected some species of the animal kingdom: cats, sharks, pigeons, turtles. but now, i guess we are going to dissect um.. humans. oh, don't get me wrong. i'm not squeamish to get close to non-living um.. bodies (okay, maybe i AM a bit squeamish) but then this is not what my primary concern is. what i'm so totally scared about this fact is that i might be acquainted with my not-so-close "friends", the maggots. maggots. goodness!! just thinking about them gives me the shivers. tine and ran are both afraid of spiders. as for me, i'm totally freaked out about maggots. i know, i know. they're just fly larvas but i just can't stand the site of them. one reason why i was so reluctant to being that close to ash (our pet bunny whom we really loved) during her final days was the fact that i can see some maggots near her cage floor, trying to get to her. i wanted to shout at these maggots and tell them, "can't you see she's still alive????" i just hope that when we do get around to dissecting, i would have no maggot-sighting whatsoever. please... by the way, if you were wondering, the cadavers i've dissected in my comparative anatomy class were all maggot-free. *sigh* i just hope it will be the same this time around. amber is the color of my energy ran
and i were watching a national geographic special the other day.
could a person be knocked out with just the force of your chi?
hmm.. i'm very strongly thinking about dragonball here.
does chi (or aura) even exist? well, ran says it does. and
he says my aura is yellow. and what, i ask, does that imply about me?
he says that having a yellow aura makes me a very jealous person. i
suppose i could have been a bit shocked but really, i wasn't. i
admit that i can be a very jealous person but i am never envious.
there's a big difference between the two.
 yellow case #1: a baby has just arrived home bundled up in mommy's arms. and where was the two year old M? she's hiding at the back of the sofa, having a silent tantrum, sorely thinking, "i'm not the baby anymore..." two-year old pa lang, marunong na magselos? hahahah!
maan-ology #1 "Never apologize for being who you are.
If they can't accept you, then they weren't really your friends to begin with."
what matters most this is just so plain beautiful and it totally makes sense. i just had to copy it and share it with you.
i"There comes a point in everyone's life when you realize who truly matters, who never really did, who won't anymore, and who always will. I never worried about the people in my past. There are reasons why they never made it to my present. For sure, they never will make it to my future."
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